Right now Corinne is stirring a little bit in her carseat, but she REALLY wants to stay asleep. I can tell by the way she's keeping her eyes shut. So, Steve and I have decided we're going to take a little break from our day while she's asleep, and as soon as she wakes up...Bam! We'll be right back at the day like contestants on Supermarket Sweep.

As soon as she wakes up, my plan is to feed her, play, and then when she falls asleep again I'm going to do laundry.

Steve is going to go to the gym and run around town a little bit for some errands.

Tomorrow he's taking a half day, so he'll be with her all afternoon. 

I'm so jealous.

But, they are going to have so much fun, I know it. 

I just checked my email really quickly....I had written about a writing festival, to get a catalog....they wrote back, saying "It would be great if you could send us your address."

It made me laugh....at least if your mind is a little bit gone, there are people in the universe who will remind you what you need to do...at least sometimes.

Corinne slept through the night again last night! She did for a few days, then she didn't for a few days, then she did again...so we'll see what happens tonight. She is my dear.

I've been writing letters to her. I can't stop. I love to write to her. I talk to her all the time, but I like to write to her too. I write so that I can be closer to people....and I write all the time for her, because I love her to pieces.

Anyway....I'm listening to Gillian Welch right now on Spotify....and she's still sleeping. She loves music. 

Just a little side-note....I've noticed that every time I listen to a song on Spotify it shows up on Facebook under Steve's name....so it is posted over and over again all of the musicals I've been listening to and other random music....I wonder what his friends think about that. If you were wondering about that: it was me all along. I'm the weird one....well, at least in this instance. 

I still can't believe Steve surprised me with a Kindle. 

I think I'm going to buy "The Hunger Games" if I can't borrow it from someone. And there is a new Tom Perrota novel I'm thinking about getting. If you have book suggestions, please let me know.

Along with my ideas book that I keep, and my blog, and my letters and whatever else I write, I love to read (especially to get more ideas for writing)....I'm getting better and better at squeezing in time for reading and writing and working out and whatever else I really want to do....it just means I'm doing these things at obscure times...which I think is a lot like taking your life and pressing pause and opening up a hole into a space and crawling inside of it and just doing what you need to do for a little while then crawling back out of that invisible hole and re-starting your life up.

I wonder if that made sense to anyone else but me.

The only ramifications of that which I can find is I may be a little tired the next day, like if I am doing something I've been meaning to do for whatever reason at 3 a.m.  But, I am sure people who use time machines if those people ever exist get tired too. It's just the name of the game.

I did wake up at 3am the other morning to feed Corinne and it was just before Christmas and I panicked because the kitchen sink was still full of dishes and so I stayed up until 5 am doing chores, fell back asleep and then got up for work shortly after. So that was kind of like what I just described.

ANYWAY

If time machines did exist (or if it were commonly available to use one) I would so not use one by the way. I am terrified of time travel other than forward like I have been doing my whole life. The very idea of going back in time is terrifying to me: what if you get trapped? what if you have to meet someone you know at a whole other stage of their life and you hate what you see? what if you get trapped? what if you alter history forever and you didn't mean to and a really bad domino chain happens? what if you get trapped?

These are the questions that ran through my mind before I saw Back to the Future. 

I was terrified of those movies until one day around this time last year I faced my fears and watched them.

They are AWESOME.

Except I don't really like Jennifer's character she's a bit one-dimensional and doesn't ask any of the right questions ever. She's like a little robot if you ask me.

But really they are very good. Even though technically I never saw the last ten minutes of the third one and to me Jennifer is trapped in the wrong time somewhere still and that is EXACTLY what I was so terrified for so long and still am. Oh my God that is ironic I didn't even think of that until I was writing this down.

I'll have to rent it and abolish that fear as soon as I can. 

Maybe I'll do that at 3 am.